2021 May 13
Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm glad to have the opportunity to write/blog before. This is a slow-forming habit, but I've posted more frequently than I have in all of the past few years. This is more meaningful than most other stuff I've participated in because this writing is coming from me, without any other direct secondary source. What I mean by that is I am using no prompts other than what's already in my head to create the bulk of this writing. This is clear of direct influence from friends or family or celebrity or aquaintence. This is Jonathan Todd Gauchat without directly revealed threads of connection. It feels like this is me, that this is originating from the spark inside.
This is very similar in format to the "notes" that I used to write after I'd stay up late at night and masturbate. My indulgence was solitaire and music, sometimes pornography, sometimes learning about technology, but lots of music, lyrics, writing, playing solitaire and other stuff.
Cooking wasn't on my radar and my primary medium of art was painting and sketching and digital graphics.
I am feeling fatigued for some very odd reason. The story of my own life is tiring, I suppose. But I'm grateful and glad that I am writing this instead of staying up late watching porn, trying to find the perfect provocative situation. This is something I'll have to continue to discuss at a later junction. Right now I have a lot of memory to encode.
Signing off,
Jonathan